385th entry:


This entry was supposed to be blogged last weekend. But since it was my friends' birthday i shant pollute the joyous mood in anyways with this type of entry.


Firstly, i will like to say that although you were not as good as compared to others, i thought it was all fate. So i hung on to that thought. I was trying to believe in any optimistic way that i could. As much as i dislike you, i always believed that if you were to pass on, i would, at least, feel a pinch of sadness in me. But after this incident, I have no idea how to face you in the future. I hardly think that i will want to respect you in any ways that i did in the past. Not to mention if you deserved to be repsected or not. Seriously, how do you want me to face you, to talk to you when I see you again? I want to run away from home. So that i will not see that disgusting figure of yours.

But i cannot bear to leave her with you. What wrong has she done to deserve this? All she did was to love you, to believe that you could bring her happiness. But throughout the past few decades, what have you showered her? Unhappiness. Troubles over finances; troubles about other things. What has she done to deserve all this? But i guess she, just like me, held on to the thought that it would be over one day. And then this incident came. So how you expect her to communicate with you? What do you want her to do?

I want to say to you,MY DAD, is this what you are worth?



someone, bring me away.