329th entry:




i think im experiencing redrawal syndromes. damn bad. as in u noe, im not feeling myself these days. for god knows what reason. might be that period of the month and prolly tons lots of stuff. this feeling is just so sickening. im kinda of sick having to stay cheerful cuz that's what im perceived by others. im just suddenly so tired. ppl don really see me smiling and laughing as much as a week ago or so. for just one simple reason that i donnoe, im not being myself. so if u read this post, don ever ever ask me if im okies or whats wrong; im just not in the mood to be myself and do not come and counsel me. im pretteh fine, just that im not feeling/being myself. don wish to find out the reason why either. don bother. im just so sick of having to put on a forced smile when i see ppl. im just so sick of doing that. i know im a cheerful person in most of ppl's mind, but even an animal throws its temper, and so do i.

so many things piling, be it physically or mentally. not time to settle so many things.

can i just quit like that?


holy fuck. let me vent it out.