302nd entry:



when was the last time i sat down on a bus for a long ride home?
when was the last time i sat down with SFG in that cafeteria, gossiping ourselves away?
when was the last time i watched movie with my frens?
when was the last time i really sat down and studied?
when was the last time i went to sentosa?
when was the last time i went to the airport?
when was the last time i pon-ed any events?
when was the last time i lied?
when was the last time that i told the truth?
when was the last time when i smiled with my heart?
when was the last time i cried my heart out?
when was the last time when we can talk to each other abt everything under the sun?
when was the last time we felt really great and good to have each other around?
when was the last time i made u sad?
when was the last time you made me cry?
when was the last time i felt really mad?
when was the last time i felt taht the world was being really unfair?
when was the last time i think i should not be in this world??



i cant answer these questions; for which i need to take some time to think and recall events. these questions maybe so minute to us that we do not even bother about it. but think now, can you answer these questions within 5 milli seconds? are they really just useless and minute questions that you shouldn't even waste that "so-called 5 milli seconds" on?


think about it.

dates maybe insignificant. when they become, can you really remember it always?
i know i cant. i admit.

i forsee a storm coming, the one same as that happened four years ago.
maybe it's just that im over sensitive; maybe i'm correct.
but for sure, i do not think i still have the energy to do what i did last time.
tired; tired of these annoying things/relationships that i need to handle with care.
these years in the midst of society, seeing all those relationships trouble shit and blah, im tired. really tired. maybe you know im referring to you; maybe u don't. but whatever it is, i just wanna tell you that i treasured this relationship of ours alot. i pray that it's just me being too sensitive. i really do hope it's like this, for which, i am really too tired to do any thing to save it.



sensitive me.-