260th entry:


haiz.
second week into the term.
the third school term of the year2007.
the second last term for me in school uniform.
and the last two months for me to experience proper normal school days.
before the study breaks.
before the prelims.
before the A levels.

well well well.
it looks like things are getting more and more weird nowadays.

like getting back ur last jcts u sat for.
like the tutors' comments are getting more and more worried sounding.
like the papers are shittily hard and full of crap.
like even if u don study, u can still by luck get a 40+ marks for chem.
like there's nowhere to go after school on wednesdays and fridays.
like ur saturdays suddenly seemed so clear and plain cuz u got nothing to do.

my days are numbered in school.
well, though that sounded abit weird,
but it's true, isn't it?
it's hard to get back onto the mugging track;
cuz of the super duper loong break we had after jcts, like abt 5days or so?

yesh.

we cramped one month of break simply into FIVE pathetic days.
body clock have yet to be correctly tuned back.
and thus, my body is kinda of still functioning in the holiday mode.

the time and mood that i used to have in term2 is lost.
but even if i found them back,
i cant use them for term3.

term3 is a much slackier in non-academic events;
but more intense academically.

i've stepped down.
6years of band.
the journey paused here.
i hope.

2years ago.
it did stop.
2years down the road;now.
it paused.
im not sure if it will continue to record the journey of band im gg to have in the future.
but it has paused for now.

A levels is more impt than anything else.
like seriously,
ANYTHING ELSE.

learn to be self-sufficient;
so that u need nothing else,
but u, urself.
ur mind;
ur soul;
ur thinking;
ur hardwork;
ur consistency.

that's true whatever u need now.
nothing else could really bring out what u are.
nothing else could assist u in whatever u wanna do now.

focus is the keyword.
concentrate is the main topic.

put away whatever u have in ur mind for just these four months.
four months down the road,
it's gg to be tough.
the road to As is a tough one.
it's gg to be a tough fight.

yesh, especially alone.
but ure alone physically only;
never mentally.

ur frens are there to throw u support.
for which, they are in the exact same shoes as u.
don worry if u have nothing in ur mind other than mugging.
when ure tired,
take a short break.

look ard.

all ur frens are there too;
in the same situation as u.
working and mugging their hearts out.
for the goal they have in common with u;
getting good grades in As is motivation.

don ever say u have no goal; no motivation.

u set ur own goal;
u source for ur our motivation.

everyone can have the same goal;
but they have different sources of motivation.

ur motivation comes within urself.
ur goal comes from what u really want.
no one can help u set ur own goal.

u set ur own;
but ppl help in getting u reaching ur end point.

the journey is gg to be tough;
but yet, a memorable and enjoyable one.


for the As, all of us can do it.-