254th entry:



i wonder at times,
what will happen if i get to live the past 18years again?
who am i now if i ever get the chance?
what will i behave and have experienced if i ever get the chance?
will i ever ever get the chance?



perhaps,
i'll experience hell lots of diff things.
my life wouldnt be the same as now.
if possible,
i'll not live my life as it is now.
i'll hope to change it for a btter.
and if possible,
i'll take a different route.

perhaps,
i'll end up in a different situation.
or maybe not.
maybe i'll still be stuck in the same dilenma but in a different environment.


well.



nothing shant be said.-
forgotten.-