224th entry:

well, orientation is over. time for me to settle down and face the damn work load and A levels. feeling kinda of stressed up becuz of the huge workload to catch up with. furthermore, i have new tutors whom i donnoe what their expectations of me/class might be. not feeling veri well also contributed to my mood swings here and there. just not feeling the right way now. perhaps im still not used to getting to school early, after the two months full of slacking.

currently, im onli left with econs to finish and im sort of back on to the track. i need to rethink about how should i study and stuff. hmm. maybe i should come home directly and not roam ard in sch like what i used to do after promos last year. time has changed, and i need to adapt to the changes well enough to manage my time and studies well.

mood swings every now and then didn't help me to solve my problems. donnoe why am i feeling so weird nowadays. perhaps it's you, or maybe it's you. well, it could lies with me too. sigh. i simply cant wait for this week to be over, when i can finally have the time to settle down and revise my work. you can label me as a mugger for all i care. if that's called peer pressure, you're a bad company. i don see in anyways, will my close frens such as PC or my clas mates call me that cuz they know that's for my own good.

i've learnt that in this world, there's no one you can depend for good for survival, if you know what am i referring to. i've lost all the confidence. i've lost all the faith. again and again. tired. and i know, if i continue to try, i'll get even more worn out. if you want to back up now, for all i care, go ahead. i cant be bothered by this ever again. tired. i am so tired.


go ahead and break my heart.
leave my world after which please.-