169th entry:

happy thingS abt today:


one of my best pals of the four wonderful years in tkgs. gah. tho 17 is an ugly number, just tahan it for 365 more days and u'll be 18!!! and we can drink HOOCH or Breezer LEGALLY!!! hahaha.

10th August. coming soon.~

i think i need to do tons of work to immune myself from the pain le.
just like today.
chest hurts momentarily. so din play tbone today. a percussionist for the day. ha. i played the timpani!!!! but got lost half way thru the song. but at least i played the first movement all by myself. HAHA. hmm. then went to carry the marimba and xylophone back. was dead tired.
and my chest continued to feel the pain. so, sort of decided not to play tbone till my appointment, which is a month later. supposed to be today, but i postponed it in order not to miss anymore fridays. i missed last friday's lesson, so don wish to miss the lessons again.
oh, Mr Fun said my laughter sounded like a seal. but then again, i was trying to laugh and breathe at the same time. could be considered trying to prevent an asthma attack at the point of time when i was laughing.

today's one of the better days of the week. this week is a rather sucky week of my life. everything seemed to be falling into parts just in this period of time. donnoe why too. sigh. this is life.

like what bixia quoted from me:
"wanting's right;
there's a new life right infront of me.
and i shuldn't waste it.
there's no use crying."
&
"it's going to be hard;
there will be tears shed.
but i wun regret.
i ll leave the rest to fate."

i think it's time for me to change my life.
i need a new life.
new life.
whole new way of living.


Standing on the beach, sand between my toes
What lays in my future, who will come and go
The sun beams down upon me, as I raise my head and look
At the vast ocean before me, its size which I mistook
I feel so insignificant compared to this great expanse
What difference can I make, will I even be given a chance
I realize then while standing there, that all I have to do
Is listen to my heart and it will pull me through
For strength and inspiration are not material things
They come from deep inside of you they give your soul its wings
So whenever you're in doubt and you begin to stray
Take a look down deep inside and the answer will come your way
If you only believe in yourself you can make your dreams come true
For no one else can do it, the power must come from you.-


wont brood abt what has happened.
wont think abt the matter.
nothing abt the past.
focus on the present.
looknig at the future.-