168th entry:

so many things happened simply in this week. so many unwanted matters happened. so many ppl feeling unhappy with me. so many ppl ard me feeling unhappy. why? should i bother abt all this?
i thot i could easily let it go. i thot i could actually stop thinking abt it. i thot i could put it down and carry on with my life. but the more i don wish to think abt it, the more i'll be remindered of. the more i want to leave it, the more it'll stick to me. i donnoe why would i feel this way. is it reali because what i felt? or is it because im thinking too much? i hope im not correct. neither ways. ironic.
thank goodness i still got frens ard me, showing with care and concern that im lacked out. im hurt. my frens are willing to heal my wound that it has caused. my frens are willing to help me out of it. my frens are willing to ease the pain it has brought on to me..

that four letter word is painful. i used to believe in it. but now, after so much had happened. i've a second thot on continue to believe in it. should i? or should i not?


feeling of floating is so unsafe. when will i be secured on the main island?


Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love.-
Jane Austen (1775 - 1817)