163th entry:

today's one of the most horrible day of the week. was feeling terrible in the morning. started the day with a terrible maths test that was easy but i just couldnt score. then my mood just went all the way down to the bottemless pit. sigh. talking to my classmates din make things better, cuz we all felt the same way. Wanyee was like hating maths and wondering if she made a mistake by taking 4h2 and 1h1. sigh. same here. only our combi's heavy. with three scis and their pracs plus econs that most of us don reali understand. screwed. feeling rather terrible because of that too. don understand why too. perhaps i shouldnt have changed my combi. perhaps if i cant make it to continue with the cirrent combi, i hope i can go poly then. sigh. perhaps that'll be a better choice. everything's falling down on me now.
almost lose my temper during pdub because of some irritating person who thot that teachers are stupid and ignorant. he thinks that he's always the right. if onli mrs yong wasn't there, i would've explode and yelled at him. perhaps things will start flying towards him.
i was in a terrible mood today. i swear i was.
even the thot of going back tkgs for prefects' inverstiture doesnt make me happy.
how would i wish the few of us were in the same sch and class. then maybe i wont feel that sad and depressed so easily. my life will then be filled with laughter and fun. life wouldnt be so miserable now. i need a hug. 7hugs in total. u noe who u are. sigh.
realised something that hurt alot today. sigh. im such a fool.i feel that i've been a fool all along. don ask why. the truth hurts. the truth always hurt. then i rather be a fool and not know the truth. i rather spend my time dreaming and thinking abt what is the truth.
my eyes are swollen. or rather, one of my eye is swollen and red. it hurts. and i feel a cut on my eyelid. have no idea why is it there. perhaps i rubbed my eyes too hard. sigh.

tears are flooding me.-