158th entry:

whee. did the most work today as compared to the rest of the day. hmm. did like physics, maths, ECONs, and pdub. gosh. just realised that it wont help even if i drop chem to h1 level, cuz i die die have to count my constrasting subject aka ECONs in the university entry. horrible. i hate MOE.it's so kukuu!!! gah. how would i wish it will just be any 3h2 subject and any 1h1 subject.why must one of the subjects be of a contrasting discipline?! why? sigh. i feel sho sad for myself. gah. why didn't i go poly? perhaps i wont feel so stressed and stuff. mistakes. sigh. but then again, what's done cannot be undone. wanting, stop brooding abt what has happened. sigh. wished i could do that. feeling a bit regret now though. but what's the point?
oh, i cant wait for pet's day. felt like putting a hamster or tortoise on a hot sizzling frying pan. haha. bet the animal's rxn would be so damn cute. ok, im being saddist. but be assusred, that will never happened. and i also felt like boiling goldfish.hmm.


bixia called me today. oh. that gal who sat near me during the upper sec life. the gal whom i knew since sec3. the gal whom i always suaned since then. the gal who always break the sch rule and always kana caught by me in the upper sec life. she missed 4e1, she missed tkgs life. she missed me. that's the same for me. though our class was a class filled with nothing but politics, i still missed it to a small extent. i misses the times going to the den sometimes in the morning, reporting for duty as early as seven, going to canteen early in the morning to have breakfast with my darls and vera, going across to the coffeeshop opposite the petrol kiosk to buy wanton mee and get burnt by the chilli. i missed the times going for recess with the fellow prefects, misses the times going for recess duties, seeing ppl whom i don wanna see, going to the den to celebrate prefect's bdae and get smashed by the cake. i missed the times preparing for "River Of Life", missed the times bitchingabt ppl openly, missed the times sitting unglamly, missed the times whereby we could shout like no one's business, missed the times being tested by ms sia one by one in her office, missed the times in combine in both schubert and vivaldi room. missed the ALL GALS time. sigh.

happiness doesnt not cancel out the regrets;
though they act on the same body.-