140th entry:


firstly, i am in a super duper weirdly depressed mood. so im apologised to anyone whom i dao-ed or sort off gave attitude to.


sorry.


but that doesnt mean that im ok.

im in a weird condition that me myself cant reali describe.

it's just a feeling when u feel that the world despise u or like u've let them down.

u disappointed them and they've gotten the wrong person.


i am the wrong person.

i've been wanting to deny the fact to whatever that has happened.

but i noe, i cant.

instead i've to prove myself wrong.

but that's easier said than done.

so many things up against me.

including myself.

sigh.

i donnoe where am i.

reali.

im lost.



being pricked 28times is nothing.

as compared to the amt of hurt i've overcome.

as compared to the number of cuts i gave myself over the years.


it's nothing.-